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I'm Only Me When I'm With You

2012-02-14T03:16:00.002+08:00

Dedicating this to my parents, my brother, the best friends, the classmates and all other loved ones. Also, a special mention for someone, thanks for giving me a remarkable 10years of memories. Happy Valentine's (:

I won't run, I won't fly, I will never make it by without you.

Just Like That, I'm Crawling Back To You

2012-02-13T14:12:00.004+08:00

For the past one week, it was a long one. But nevertheless a fruitful and productive one! Been thinking through alot alot of things and figured out some issues as well. Met old and new friends, spent time with the classmates at the pub, visited former Elementary School teacher with a bunch of great, old friends. Spent a couple of hours in mamak just talking our lives away. It's been nice to catch up and also to open up ourselves to our life stories. Afterall people whom you may be seeing almost everyday has kept their deepest darkest secrets within and all they needed was an ear to offer, or a hug welcoming them with open arms. I really love to catch up with old friends, such dimes. It's gonna be difficult for me to fork out some time within the next couple of months, getting my head into the CLP game. I could do lunch and dinners, afterall. Or even a cup of coffee at night!

Happy Birthday, Matt! (:

Had a six-hour lecture on Civil Procedure was supposedly be a killer, but god knows why we felt so disturbed and bothered after the day. It was a rather gloomy day for us to discover stories of the 1988 Judicial Crisis. For me, the man whom I once had utmost respect for, was the man behind this 1988 Judicial Crisis. Someone please remind me again why and how did I manage to score highest on projects and essays regarding our Father of Modernisation? Well I suppose there's also a flipside to a coin but one of the suspended judges actually proposed for an inquiry while the ones involved were still alive and kicking. Oh well, we shall see what happens. Till then, I think there were many of us wanting to do something about this, or maybe not.

We've been told and reminded of stories about the late Tan Sri Eusoffe Abdoolcader as well, such a hopeless romantic. Still digging out his latin poems on the net. I will wanna marry someone like him too! (:

pictures courtesy of Daniel Gan

From Crayons To Perfume

2012-02-12T03:36:00.006+08:00

It's been 10years since I last sat down and spoke to my teacher, one who taught me for 3years during elementary school. Over the past 10years we rarely attempted to pay her a visit, but I'd just bump into her in pharmacies or random coffee shops. It's always been a hi-bye or casual conversation kind. Even in recent years, I guess it was due to transportation issues and since we're entering adulthood for my batch, guess its much convenient today to reach her and to visit her at her place. I guess its also because that, as time passes and as we grow, we slowly learned to appreciate better, and it starts with people who are or once dear to us. However, everyone has different priorities in life and it also depends on how we prioritize them too.

Well, I had a great time spending time with my teacher and her kids. Long forgotten since when we had built a strong connection among us the classmates and our teacher. For three years at our initial stage of growth and education, I think that explains pretty much. We didn't talk much today coz we were entertaining her kids most of the time, but the fact that we are able to sit around together today simply amazed me. I appreciated that, alot. It was also my first time getting so close to a kid/child, and really spend time to talk to them and offer them an ear. Some things which kids wouldn't tell parents, well afterall the saying goes - sometimes a stranger understands your problems better. I felt a strong connection with this young daughter of hers, well I believe my other mates had quite an unforgettable encounter with her as well. But the fact that she was able to tell me things I didn't expect a kid would say to me, I felt well received and accepted. I never had such a bond or connection with a child before, coz I guess I just don't have that kind of charm for kids and as some of you might have known me for some time, knowing that I lack patience and I'm pretty short-fused. Guess over the years, I've learned to sit down and listen rather than speaking up.

p/s: I heard I wasn't her only best friend that night, fine ...

I believe everyone has their side of story to offer, but was never given the chance to share. I'd hope to have more chances to meet friends and to hear them out, to speak to them. I don't mind sharing my stories if that builds a trust relationship between us and that I could offer you an ear too! Perfect ending for the night. (:

pictures courtesy of Wilson Liew

There's A World Out There That We Should See

2012-02-08T23:58:00.004+08:00

Was just briefly talking about ideas going abroad to .. maybe Hong Kong to advance our career, or to just gain some exposure and experience while we're still young. It was just a random discussion and little did I know, we ......... sort of took that into consideration and seems like we are finding ways to work towards such planning. I don't know what the future lies ahead but I will certainly not kill opportunities coming towards me. I wouldn't mind spending a year or two getting another qualification or even to just pursue a masters (LLM in my case) in Hong Kong, who knows, maybe HKU would take me in! Dream big.

Kinda talked to some other friends about their plans to leave the country for self-developments and career advancement. Everyone seemed to have a plan seeing themselves leaving the country, but nevertheless the vision of our future would still be blurry-imaged. Considering the fact that most of us are still an undergraduate with no earning capacity at the moment. And I wouldn't wanna ask my parents to fork out money to pay off my first three months rent in HK right?

Well that being said, dreams are far from reality. We shall see what happens next! ;)

A Smooth Criminal

2012-02-03T02:17:00.002+08:00

Bar application went well for me, submitted just few weeks ago. Referees have been pretty supportive of me, references had all been submitted just last 2 weeks and the other day I got an email with my student number, username and password. Not too sure if it's an offer and whether it's secured, but I see good chances that I might be able to get it. Trying not to keep my hopes high but I will certainly wanna fight for it this time round. Remember how much I had went thru last year, the struggle, in deciding whether to stay back to do the bar, or to return home to spend some time with the family after such family tragedy earlier last year. It's still affecting me, I have to be honest. But I'm slowly picking up the pieces, afterall who could have survived double impacts at the same time. Suet is strong!

Right now CNY has passed, gonna hit the ground running to prepare for my CLP revisions. I know it's a few months to go but I can't help wanting to start reading up on stuff now. It's just simply too bulky and hectic. Previously I couldn't care less, not bothered to flip my books, just thought of attending classes and will later deal with the syllabus when the time comes. Afterall who is ever ready for something, or, is there even a right time for just anything? I just learned to flip the books again throughout the week and started reading. To my surprise, the course is really bulky and I've got so much more to catch up on. But so far, I've enjoyed my classes, lecturers have been really inspiring, I have a bunch of lovely classmates. I've been enjoying my CLP days better than my LLB times in Reading, UK. What more can I ask for? (:

Barrister or Barista?

2011-12-10T15:44:00.000+08:00

I love my classmates. :3

So Am In This Alone?

2011-11-30T00:12:00.002+08:00

Reminds me of the days when I step into H&M Reading and they'd play songs by Olly Murs! (:

Those Years

2011-11-17T19:25:00.004+08:00

This blog post will be written in the Chinese language.

人生就是有那麼多的遺憾，往往只能讓我們回憶過去。我們會懷念當初的愚昧，當初天真純真的想法，當年的執著。那些年錯過的愛情，是因為遺憾所以美好，還是因為美好而感到遺憾?

我的初戀，我當年的執著，你現在過得還好嗎？(:

If Perfect's What You're Searching For, Then Just Stay The Same!

2011-11-13T21:02:00.003+08:00

Well you see, I was told that I was at the risk of being born as a child with special needs, and my parents took the risk to bring me to this beautiful place without the fear for me being a down-syndrome kid at birth. I was also been told that my mom had been thru all sorts of scanning thru-out hospitals and medical centres across KL as well as Singapore. Wow, I must say I had my first flight experience even before I was born. My mother was conceived with me at the age of early-40s, and that involved high risk of having a baby-me being born with some form of disabilities, be it mentally or physically. And I've storied this to a couple of my friends about the chances of me being a down-syndrome kid back then, they would just laugh at me and say: "Look at yourself in the mirror, you look like one sick, retard kid. You probably suffer down-syndrome but you didn't know."

...... I don't know if they really meant it but secretly I'd love to think that they were just joking. I don't know why I still call them friends, haha. But true friends are the ones who will tell you there's dirt on your face isn't it? I accept the fact that my physical attributes are not be as outstanding as others but I am really thankful that I suffer no disabilities in my early childhood stage, as well as going thru the phase of primary and secondary education. I can safely say that I am quite a normal kid, I think.

After all, no one was born perfect, and so as the saying perfectly imperfect. Mindy Gledhill sang: "It's not about the scars, it's all about your heart." (:

And as I got the chance to finally getting involved and to experience what Community Service is all about - especially when I participated in school activities, ie: the Interact and Rotary programmes - I have always wanted to play a part for the society, in particular to serve for the younger generations who are suffering from the down-syndrome disease. I tried googling about it and found about Kiwanis Down-Syndrome Foundation of Malaysia, signed up while I was in the UK, hoping to play a greater part in this when I am finally capable of being physically there to serve them when I return home to Malaysia. Nothing much, just sharing some very tiny bit detail of my life, which most of you may not have known. But now you do.

Will do further research on this but work is keeping me really busy, so as to other issues with regard to my personal life as well. Nevertheless, if there's a will there's a way. You'd be thinking that I might be BShitting you coz I shouldn't even have brought up the fact that I'm busy and stuff. Oh well, like I've said, I was just sharing the story of my life as an almost-a-downsyndrome-kid-story. Not every other kid is just as fortunate as me to be able to live perfectly for the past 21years so this is to raise some awareness among the public, or at least my readers to play a part and to serve the society. There are other needy around you too.

Signing off with our Interact motto. Viva la Interact, Service Above Self!

Because I Listen To Country Music

2011-11-02T20:36:00.002+08:00

I'm in my room, it's a typical Tuesday night. I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like. She'll never know your story like I do.

Have You Ever?

2011-11-01T20:35:00.002+08:00

Have you ever tried drafting a blogpost, or even just expressing your feelings by putting it down in words; after having spent a very long time drafting it, nicely tailored and fashioned. Turn around, you then save it as a draft and not posting it, or even, delete it?

It happens to me all the time, you will find alot alot alot of my saved drafts as well.
All my deepest darkest secrets everywhere, sigh.

Hammurabi's Code of Laws

2011-10-31T17:39:00.001+08:00

After 11 years, I am still unable to decode his lyrics. This is such a masterpiece.

I Miss Everyone!

2011-10-29T19:35:00.004+08:00

I miss everyone who are still in London and those who have just gone to the UK. Screw time difference, screw the distance, I really don't like this.

I just can't wait to see them again.

picture courtesy of various people. i love my friends.

Confessions

2011-10-28T21:09:00.002+08:00

"你咳得咁犀利, 不如我幫你咳啦. 我企係旁邊我做唔到任何野, 我只可以係旁邊俾杯暖水佢." ):

Once you find the person you want to spend the rest of your life with,
you just simply can't wait for the rest of your life to begin.

Day One, One Day

2011-10-28T02:53:00.003+08:00

Still picking up the pieces left all over, slowing pacing along the lines. Ain't gonna live the life of a zombie this time around. I'm good, cheerio! Tried to be productive but the pain was just ridiculous, I curled up in bed the whole day and barely moved.

Sharing you a piece of my newly favourited. You know you're some kind of wonderful. (:

The night before, pledged to empty out the room and got mom's permission to have my room revamped. I need a place that my friends can hang out at, not some place I have to deny their entry coz its just simply a mess. My house is just like a place to store old documents, files, boxes and boxes of papers and other junks. I feel so stupid surrounded by many useless things. Finally emptied out one cupboard and a shelf full of magazines and papers, notes from Pre U and Law School. Swear its not just that, there's gotta be more around the house. My notes, books, papers have been everywhere, I feel like burning the whole house down and just build a new one instead. Simply too much to look thru and to throw them away.

Anyone volunteer to help? ):

Here We Go Again

2011-10-27T02:26:00.006+08:00

The day I fear most has arrived. Thank god for the girls being around for me the whole time. Spent the night at Serra's watching soap drama, then all three of us including Elaine were seen sitting at one corner each with our phones, texting. Not good. Pledged to put down the phone after a couple of songs and had a sharing session. Interesting night. And they refused to accompany me for desserts, was craving for sweet stuff. Give me something sweet and I'll be happy, ice cream is +1. Haven't been blogging properly lately, been speaking Manglish for 3whole months. Not good, need to brush up on my English again. Time for some reading on English judgments again, how I miss those flowery English.

Haven't been really productive lately, starting NOT to understand lectures and the course gets tougher each time. I am currently on a Deepavali break for a week, one thing I love most about Malaysia is the ample amount of public holidays we have. Good things always come to an end (fast) as usual and its the mid-week already. I've not completed the two essays as requested and to catch up on some reading list.

And the Bar application opens next month, I'm gonna put in my application once again. At the same time, a part of me doesn't wanna leave. It's not the place that holds me back but the people around. I hate goodbyes. Another part of me isn't ready for all these work stress again year after year. I've always have this idea of putting in my application upfront and I shall consider about it only if I am being offered a place. Not too good an idea. Sigh.

" ... at least London wanted you" - my lecturer comforted me.

Kinda lost myself lately, been going against my principles. I have always hated the fact that I have to change myself just to please others. I had nothing to hide and it's not obligatory for me to please everyone on earth. Privatised my twitter account, I never had problems being public with myself before this. Changed various privacy settings on other social networking accounts, even to the extent of shutting this blog. I track my visitors, I know who reads my blog. But sometimes, for some reason you just have to lay down your ego and pride, for better obvious reasons.

So much to say, so limited, so restricted. All these will come to an end right?

Incomparable

2011-10-26T14:12:00.002+08:00

無與倫比 reminds me of Incomparable concert 2005. That's when the whole myJAYsian achievements began, and today it's the pre-order for his new album to be released on 11.11.11. Didn't like his first single hit which they have just aired on Monday, but that has always been the trend. His 2nd hit comes out the best, lets just wait and see.

I Hate It, I Hate The Way You're Always Right

2011-10-26T02:59:00.004+08:00

I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Whale You ........ ?

2011-10-25T02:08:00.000+08:00

Love You More Than A Fat Kid Loves His Cakes

2011-10-24T13:59:00.009+08:00

It's like, I will want to throw you off a cliff
and rush to the bottom right away just to catch you.

"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly." - Sam Keen

No, he's not perfect. He is a human and he is flawed.
But he is perfect to me and he is perfect for me, and thats all that matters.

You're Everything I'm Not

2011-10-23T23:28:00.003+08:00

One old song, one of the favourites from Natasha Beddingfield. iTunes on shuffle and here goes the pick of the day. Why the Beddingfields always make good music with catchy ballads and some meaningful lyrics? Can't help but to share.

"so if you got a good one, put your hands up." :D

Me & My Stupid Pride

2011-10-23T00:53:00.010+08:00

I am sorry, it is my fault. What can I do to make it right?

Roll Deep

2011-10-20T23:01:00.004+08:00

I've forgotten since when it has become a routine, that you will have to wait for a certain time to say certain things to a certain someone; rather than a there-and-then moment where you feel like just saying or expressing your views, feelings and/or affections, as well as those I-need-to-tell-you-this-right-now moments. And if you've missed that certain time, tough luck, try again tomorrow.

I hope all these will come to an end soon, real soon.

Make My Wish Come True

2011-10-18T17:15:00.002+08:00

I don't want a lot for Christmas, there is just one thing I need. And I don't care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree. I just want you for my own, more than you could ever know.

Make my wish come true, all I want for Christmas is you.

Why Are You So Special?

2011-10-17T15:23:00.001+08:00

You make me so mad and I get so tired of you. Then it's like, you smile, or you say something dumb and it's like all of a sudden I totally forget about why I was even upset by you in the first place.

Why are you so special?

Already Gone

2011-10-17T11:35:00.003+08:00

She used to have this lyrics written on a scented piece of paper, and decorated with all her creative drawing - glued onto my brother's wardrobe. It's like a daily reminder for the both of them. And those days when I was still little, seeing myself grew an inch taller each day, I began to learn Chinese during my primary education and one fine day, I finally managed to read its content. I wonder where has the paper gone today? I think he got rid of the cupboard, coz i dont see it in there anymore. But I'm not too sure of that lyrical message she left for him there.

你系我一生一世, 至爱的皇帝.

I Could Stand Up And Sing You A Song

2011-10-16T01:27:00.004+08:00

I'll leave my window open, coz I'm too tired at night to call your name.
Just know I'm right here hoping, that you'll come in with the rain.

If It Kills Me

2011-10-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you make me so mad that I just want to throw you in a cage full of hungry tigers.
But then I realise, I would probably jump in and get myself killed just to save you.

Jackpot!

2011-10-13T23:27:00.003+08:00

This friend of mine, we went out, spend a brilliant night together over dinner. Chatted for a couple of hours, into deeper conversations. Something only we both know, something only we have both been through. We knew of each other's past, the hidden past, the ugliest truth and the worst encounters.

Thanks for a brilliant night my dear, one of the best conversations ever.
I think I have the answer to that question already.

Sadarku Bahwa Engkau Bukan Milikku

2011-10-13T16:02:00.003+08:00

Remember back in Reading, all of us among our classmates went into a low-point of life graph because of this song. This song accompanied us to sleep, even on loop while we're sitting there reading our books, studying or even just doing nothing. All of us could just sit there listening to this and stone aside.

Everyone was upset at some point of time, at the same time.

More Than Life

2011-10-13T10:16:00.003+08:00

Oh tonight I'm feeling fine, I'm alone just wasting time.
No Friday movie nights, or romantic candlelight.
I'm just having conversations with the thoughts in my head.
All I hear are angels crying, oh won't they just sing instead?

It's Thursday morning, forgotten since when I learned to wake up so early in the morning, and it gets earlier each day. No longer feeling sleep-deprived, especially when you have something to look forward to every morning, and you just can't help it. Been very enthusiastic with my studies lately, and also the fire died down not too long ago. Sigh, isn't it always like that? Just anything. The passion for it will die down really soon, like roller-coaster - the end of story within split seconds.

Life's like that.

I Never Promised You A Rose Garden

2011-10-10T23:30:00.002+08:00

Oh, Sometimes Love's Intoxicating.

2011-10-09T02:53:00.006+08:00

Think I'll have to just take back what I said in the previous post or I might just admit that I will be going against my words. Sometimes it's just hard to forget, I know that. We all know that. Do you think I'm stupid enough to not weigh the consequences before going ahead with whatever things that was gonna drain up my time and effort etc? Okay, I confess that I haven't been able to see so much of the future ahead but it's a mere gut feeling.

I've been listening to this song over and over again, Nothing by The Script. It breaks my heart to just imagine and picture yourself in that situation? Well actually been there before over the years and survived. Okay lets get back to the song. It makes me weak whenever I listen to it, which I'm not suppose to, but I just couldn't resist. I asked, why dwell in it? Right? You see there's one thing about me, one day I'd be feeling so strong about/for something and the day after I will be thinking maybe what I said yesterday could be seen in another perspective and maybe it's not that easy afterall.

I don't know what the hell am I talking about. I am just not myself today.
Let me find the answer and I'll tell you someday soon. Goodnight.

Sharing you a sad one from my favourite film, Grease.

Am I Better Off Dead, Am I Better Off A Quitter?

2011-10-07T22:34:00.004+08:00

They always say, "I can't live without you. I will die without you. Don't leave me."
Have you ever wondered if you could live your life without having this someone around anymore?

I hope that we have come to a point in life that we may have realised this, relationships come and go; what you cherish today may be something you perish tomorrow. Swear I just came up with that, but that was how I'm feeling for today. What may seem like a hopeless romance, our desired fairytale love story may just turn into our worst nightmare ever the next day itself.

They say, it's funny how someone breaks your heart and you're still loving them with all the little pieces left. Dreams shattered, you've lost a special someone and you've tried very hard to get over it but you just couldn't and find yourself not being able to drag yourself out of this trap - end of story. And so the question is, to what extent will you fight for something that you have lost? Some said, only time will tell.

If you're lucky, you'll be able to discover someone new who would pick you up from hell and brings out the best in you once again. Well if you're not, you'll find yourself drowning into this over and over again. Over the years, even if you've met someone new, late at night you will still be pondering about this person whom once existed in your life, someone once played such an important role and was everything of your life.

Do not fear if you're feeling tired and exhausted from a relationship, in fact the other party should be very worried if you have lost the will of fighting. I once had this feeling that I couldn't live without this person, but as time goes by, over the years, you will feel all worn out, exhausted from a relationship. Either of you are just waiting for each other to break the silence and to ask for a separation. Tho it hurts but sooner or later you'll realise, more of that I've realised, I never had the will to fight for it anymore, I'm just tired and I just wanna get out of this. And the song goes, please release me let me go, for I don't love you anymore. Truth is, I still love him but I just don't have the fighting spirit anymore. I won't wanna be a fighter to survive our relationship anymore. Likewise, if my other half no longer fights for this love anymore, why dwell in it?

Once again, just to re-emphasise my point if you haven't gotten me - some things, relationship wise they are worth fighting for, but then, you can't be the only one fighting. Think about it, point to ponder.

If she sees me how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure.
Oh you're coming down your hands are shaking, when you realise there's no one waiting.

You Are Your Own Worst Enemy, You'll Never Win A Fight

2011-10-05T11:59:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone, it's been overwhelming for the past few weeks. Ultimately the only reason my emotions have been all up and down, it's been resolved. I lived like a zombie everyday waking up to lacking a purpose in life, okay it wasnt that extreme but it was close to torment. I've almost gone crazy and it's been haunting me everyday of my life, day and night.

I can safely say that I've been through hell, and just got back.

Won't tell anybody how you turned my world around
Won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound

I don't need a parachute. Derek Hough is love.

Two Months Ago; Sparks Flew, Emotions Ran High

2011-09-30T23:20:00.002+08:00

Those summer nights; been thinking of how I spent the nights for the past few weeks around August and September, couldn't recall. Tried to recall but I just couldn't. Humans are just some forgetful creatures. Well in my case it's more of like a selective memory. Considering that my brain capacity has to share out a huge portion for the law I study, can't help but to filter things before registering them into the brain. Let the unhappy memories be forgotten.

And here comes October, time flies, oh sure it does. I shall spend the rest of my nights with the pile of books over there waiting for me.

A Million Stars Hanging In The Sky

2011-09-30T01:04:00.000+08:00

Sent the juniors from Law School off to Reading, UK two days ago; reminded me alot of the day I flew over to UK. Little did I expect I was gonna go home so soon, the trip back to KL during Christmas was totally unplanned. But anyway, it feels so great seeing them making their way towards a whole new life journey, a whole new chapter of their life. Can I say that I kinda watched them grow? I clearly remember that there are a few of them (the Jan Cohort), I actually counselled them during the December Taylor's Open Day and Campus Day, prior having themselves enrolled to our Law School itself. Year 1, Year 2 and now their final year in Reading. Soon they will all turn into the bunch of legal eagles, soaring high in the sky above.

Time flies, doesn't it? (:

Indeed. Thought I was having a one week break before my classes start again on Friday which is a couple of hours later. I totally didn't see this coming. 4-days break is just too short for me, HAHA considering I've not achieved anything this week. I was suppose to wipe out the old cupboards and furnitures out of my room, preparing for a massive revamp; also been wanting to get a haircut so badly for the past few weeks - haven't done so. What the hell?

I haven't been looking forward to this weekend in fact. I fear for things and people that I will have to face coz this vacation is just too long and reality has to hit one fine day. And today's the day, I so don't wanna face it. But I think I will have to. Please have mercy on me, I still wanna live peacefully in my small, confined corner with peace and serenity.

Oh simple things, where have you gone?

I Can Wait Forever

2011-09-25T07:43:00.004+08:00

So someone just came and said this to me: "If you have the chance, grab it. Your future comes first, everything else can just wait." ... And of course when the words everything else being mentioned, instantly, faces of people i loved most and images came dashing across my mind within just a split second. Very clearly I have reasons to stay which in many ways, somehow or rather, restrict and limit myself from fully executing the plans made concerning my future.

Take for example, the Bar. I so looked forward to the Bar application and was anticipating for the registration to be opened. I filled up almost every single column that I could find, leaving the tough ones behind like why do you want to be a barrister and what makes you think that you have the skills to be a good lawyer, that sort etc. I came home for Christmas from the UK, due to family matters and not realising the closing deadlines were just a few days ahead, I rushed through my application and made a mistake with the choices. Yes, I was smart enough to put London as my first choice considering I would be happily staying with my brother in London by then if things went well.

Thunder.

Unfortunately, things didn't happen as what I've predicted or foreseen, well proven that my instincts weren't as great as the reasonable standards of women's instincts. Anyway, little did I know I was offered a place to do the course with a school in London, my first choice. I received the e-mail and mom didn't really respond to me when I told her that I've been offered a place. We all knew for a fact that since the tragic incident happened to our family, I will not be staying to do the Bar; what more an offer to do it in a London school. Funding was a major issue I would say. Truth is, I didn't find it necessary to burden the family any further for the benefit of my studies. Well of course that being said, I surely did have an alternative, which is the course I'm currently enrolled to, the CLP. I was so devastated. Yes, I was. I cried. My best friends had been telling me over Skype, over the phone that I should stay for it, failing to understand the dilemma that I was in. I needed to be with my family and I believe I wouldn't wanna spend another year, and another lump sum of money being away from home. I knew I wanted to do the Bar so badly, but I couldn't. Some they were upset because they were not given a chance, ie: no offer being made. Interestingly, I got the London offer, in fact another offer came in after my results being sent over. But I just couldn't do it. Even until today, right now I'm so upset over the fact that I am supposed to be in UK right now, with my fellow law-mates learning how to do drafting at this stage; but I am not.

I rejected both the offers.

CLP has started, and it has only been the 2nd day. I've been so depressed that I don't even wanna speak to anyone each day after classes. I'd be so worn out by the end of a 7-hour lecture, all I could do was just to nod my head and silently acknowledge whatever you tried telling me. I didn't wanna eat after classes and my parents worried sick. I know I've not been a good girl lately, but I am very much drawn by emotions and the ups and downs. People would be thinking this girl is mad, all she has to worry in life is just about going to school and attend the damn CLP, ~~and her relationship~~; that's all. Somehow or rather, people fail to understand that things in life, my life in particular, things are not just as simple. I don't know, people might say that I live an easy life, and that I don't already appreciate what I have. To be frank, I do. I do appreciate all things in life but as a matter of fact, life doesn't appreciate me. You see? I think this has been the worst summer I've ever had. Things haven't been easy on me. It'd be a long list and it'd take days and nights to listen just to my rants about anything but most of the time I'd like to believe that, silence is gold. I took in a lot of things but I never really did tell anyone about them. Maybe a word or two, a friend or two. You can obviously tell from my face that I'm upset, but as to which certain things no one really knows. I'd say its more on an accumulative basis, and when the time comes the volcano has to erupt, not to mention I'm really short-fused; there goes.

Good things come to those who wait?

I somehow, never believed in that. My family told me to go ahead with the Bar course the following year and with the reasons I've stated, once again, I'm in dilemma.

Personal reasons being the bigger picture, apart from staying away from your family, can I also consider the boyfriend to be part of the family? Maybe not, just too soon and too early to tell. No, I couldn't tell if I could hear church bells ring but I'd definitely not want to give up. I am the kind who is willing to sacrifice, I honestly will. I'd give up anything just to save the relationship. To an extent that I'd die for that person, I think. Until then, I stopped fighting for it. I have lost the will-power to fight for it. Oh wait, this is so misleading, let me clarify this - I don't have a boyfriend. But this'd definitely be one of my major considering factor. Some friends of mine, not to be named, had experienced this sort of situation before and I told them to just leave, if things are meant to be, they will not fall apart. People can wait, opportunities don't. That's how I used to tell people and very clearly I knew that it's a contradicting question as to whether to leave or to stay. I would and used to call them stupid to stay because of your 'other-half'. Oh well well, easier said than done. I came to realise it's never easy to let things go just like that.

I was wrong. Everything else can just wait, so do you.
I'll choose to leave, if given a chance. I'm leaving you for real this time.

It's Been A While

2011-09-18T01:30:00.003+08:00

...... since we last sat down and spoke to each other. You were so occupied over the year and little did we know you've taken up so much to yourself. I'm sorry that we never had realised, I'm sorry that we weren't there for you. You're so strong that you've kept so much to yourself and never once throw tantrums at us. I'm so sorry things turned out this way.

But I swear to god, now that we're around, we will spend more time with you, that's for sure. Looking forward to so many more late night sessions and stayovers. It's been a while since we last had these. It's been a while ....

So Baby I'm Alright, With Just A Kiss Goodnight

2011-09-10T22:59:00.002+08:00

I know that if we give this a little time, it'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find;
It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right.
No, I don't want to mess this thing up, I don't want to push too far;
Just a shot in the dark that you just might be the one I've been waiting for my whole life.

So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight ...

14 Years of Friendship

2011-09-09T09:33:00.000+08:00

Just got back from a random drinking session with the elementary school classmates. Little did I know that we've known each other for 14years long. We graduated from elementary school in the year of 2002 and that was how many donkey years ago! We were actually thinking of gathering a few closed ones to sit down and to reminisce the good ol' times. The conversation striked up pretty well and it got more and more interesting, and to our surprise, we ended the night with our all-classic joke of the class, wrapping it up after 4hours of solid bonding and conversations.

But friendship is the breathing rose, with sweets in every fold. - Oliver Wendell Holmes

Things have never been this great among us! It was only among us few, the really close ones after all these years. Eventhough some who were informed about this couldn't make it due to busy schedules, I must say the session was incomparable! All jokes, memories and laughters. It's been one of the most remarkable reunion ever. Looking forward to more sessions like this.

One Day

2011-09-06T02:59:00.001+08:00

Please air in December. Pretty please.

I'm Gonna Love You More Than Anyone

2011-09-01T22:09:00.002+08:00

Sempurna

2011-08-29T23:30:00.001+08:00

........... too much of TVB dramas? :D

Birthday Post Preview

2011-08-21T15:10:00.003+08:00

Just a sneak peek for all, a perfect 21st birthday post will be up soon. :P

Hey, what you got to hide?

2011-08-20T04:31:00.007+08:00

Was out for a dosage of caffeine, and it rained, pissed down like it has never rained before. It takes two to whisper quietly. And maybe things weren't like before, or even that things were never like this before. Distance can just ruin anything, not just relationships I bet. For a fact that people do say that long-distance doesn't work, and I doubted. But now, I hate to admit that my perception towards this criticism has changed. In general sense, i think it does.

It just ruins something, somehow.

And today I was rather loud, being the usual self. It was annoying. But I stopped when I couldn't force things in anymore. Whatever happened to the days where we used to talk all day and night about just anything. Without a single hidden message, neither any implied meanings. Just this evening I randomly said to my mom that, these days, as we grow older, things get more personal or sometimes certain things, they are just not appropriate to be brought up as a subject in your day-to-day chatter among friends. She asked for an example, and I bet she thought otherwise. But to me, its more of like, things we have been discussing over and over again, and now, or things which you might afraid that its gonna be some kind of taboo, or ...... I don't even know how to put it into words now. Perhaps people fear of the views and how others would see them in such a way if something happened to have been revealed. I don't know.

On a side note, I felt offended inside. Friends poking fun of your physical attribute, I am immune. Not that I've never thought of a solution to fix it knowing there's a problem in existence. But more of like, I am never gonna downgrade my mentality to think that what they're doing is right. Yes, true friends are the ones that will tell you theres dirt on your face. You can even do it in my face but I'm not gonna bother.

Back to the topic, it took me a while to realise this is not working, and thereafter I kept quiet through out the drinking session. In actual fact, I fear things going out of control and that was exactly what has happened. I was furious, not being able to explain why was I feeling so. I drove home, and sat down, thought to myself. Couldn't figure out, and after several hours, I'm still wondering about it and typing it out now. The question - what is there to hide?

I'm confused, and I know you readers are too.

Then again, it takes two to whisper quietly. If I could help by just listening, I'm all ears for you. Anyone. I'll end this post with the only song I could think of now and somehow relating to this post.

2011-08-20T02:07:00.003+08:00

this is me praying that -
tis was the very first page, not where the sory line ends
my thoughts will cho your name until i see you agai
these are the words i held bac as i was leaving too soon
i was enchanted to meet you

please don't be in love with someone else
please don't have somebody waiting on you

I'm wonderstruck.

2011-08-19T20:27:00.001+08:00

Adam Young is interesting, and I wish I could blog like him.

LAWASIA Appreciation Dinner 2011

2011-08-12T12:26:00.002+08:00

Leonardo's Dining Room & Wine Loft
61-1, Jalan Bangkung,
Bukit Bandaraya,
59100 Bangsar, Malaysia.

+603-2096 2226
http://www.leonardos.my/
*Mon-Sun: 5:00pm-2:00am
*Non-Halal

I think it's the weather!

2011-08-08T16:30:00.002+08:00

I get headaches all the time. Especially in the afternoon! I went on google and flipped thru some magazines and there are several types of headaches they said. And in my case, headache + dizziness - its due to dehydration. Well, yes I don't drink 8glasses of water a day but still I don't think its merely due to dehydration.

Stupid weather, the sun is crappy. I MISS UK, in short ):

For All We Know

2011-08-04T13:51:00.002+08:00

... we might not get tomorrow?

Haven't been blogging much lately, but to only share some videos and music with ya' all which I find them interesting and some really touched my heart. How have you guys been? I'm not too sure how many of you are still reading this since I've made occasional disappearance from blogosphere! HAHA. Happened to attend a movie screening the other day and the first thing came being approached was: EH EH COME TAKE PICTURE. And I was like wtf? Can't you just let us off for a day? I was all upset coz we all know the purpose of the said picture being taken. Nothing but just another advertising tool.

I miss my classmates and Uni-mates, be it Taylor's or UoReading, long story short. We paid a visit to our former University yesterday and had lunch with the lecturer. Some faces or most of them I've not seen for long, as well as those faces which I couldn't get enough despite staying together for a year itself in Reading. (: Gonna kickstart with my postgrad-studies soon. Couldn't see those faces anymore as we're all headed to our separate ways.

But lucky them, they will be able to spend another year together in London. If only I am doing it together with them, le sigh. Not really putting in effort into picking out which institution I should head to for my postgrad-studies. Coz at the end of the day, it doesn't matter to me, knowing my heart still stays with the English Bar. Then again, only God knows if I'll be able to pursue my dreams. Still, I'll do something about it, but some things just don't belong to you. Maybe one day, at the right time, at the right place, and for the right person. Pretty much fated so just go with the flo' ;)

I Swear I Heard You Scream

2011-07-28T02:22:00.002+08:00

I KNOW YOU MISS ME! :3

Please Crash Over Me

2011-07-28T02:10:00.000+08:00

Along The Wire

2011-07-26T15:01:00.003+08:00

Food for the ears. I'm impressed, and touched. (':

Another Summer Day

2011-07-21T04:40:00.007+08:00

I've been back in the country for nearly a week. Not feeling too good about it, especially the weather. A friend once told me, humans are never satisfied - when we are given with something, we asked for another. I've been complaining how sick it was to be in UK and wanting to come home like ever since. Here I am back home, yet I started to miss Britain already. But afterall, its good to be home. I get to see my brother and the friends. Have yet to meet the extended family, just a few of them. Nothing much going on, but I realised my face got rounder over the weekend. I am not too sure if its the heat that makes me expand, as far as I'm concerned, I am not made of metal so you can rule this out. LOL. Well I don't really know, probably its the indulgence with Asian & Malaysian food. I've never been craving for Asian food this bad before. Say goodbye to bread and pasta.

Haven't really settled down back at home. Had to bunk in the living room for the first few days at home coz my room was piled with lotsa nonsense from my brother's. He just got his room revamped last month and that explains my room being the temporary rubbish dump. The only thing I was really upset about was that it's so dusty that my body itches each time I enter the room. Well apart from changing clothes in that room, I practically spend most of the time in the living room, with the sofa bed and the laptop. That being said, I haven't been using my laptop either. No pictures of graduation yet, for now :P

Apart from the weather, like really, really, life has been great. A few spontaneous occasions, enough to make your day, or even the week worthwhile. Elaine is back from Melbourne, met half the bunch of the besties and the rest on pending due to busy schedule. Well, times are different and we all know that. Met old friends, learned new friends, such is fate, the life cycle continues. I was in a dilemma choosing whether to stay, or to head back to UK two months later - since I was offered a place to do the Bar course then. Oh well, for now I've decided to defer a year, taking a year gap and meanwhile doing things I like and a break from studies. I will be taking up a course for the upcoming academic year, but, chances are, I might be going abroad again, to obtain the same (but better) qualification than this. Wish me luck.

LAWASIA is this weekend, can't wait. Old friends to reunite again. Once again, whoever said that people from different institutions cannot be friends? We're just gonna prove you otherwise.

I Heart

2011-07-19T13:48:00.000+08:00

Faithfully

2011-07-05T08:29:00.000+08:00

Hello there, its been some time.

Nothing much, moved out of Sherfield Hall. Moved in again to Student Village right next to it, goddamit, regretted for not getting this place last year. Oh well, moving out meaning I'm done with Uni, no point regretting, neither looking back.

I'm graduating this Friday, hopefully all goes well. Pray hard that I don't fall as I walk down the stairs with my heels on. Please, pray for me.

My parents are arriving on Wednesday. They should be boarding the plane in 12hours' time. Oh wow, can't wait. Just wish my brother could surprise me by suddenly appearing in Reading. Sigh. I really hoped that he could make it. Convinced my dad to come along and everyone at home is agitated with packing - well, British weather. Don't know what to expect. Meanwhile I'm used to the weather here that I will sweat when it hits 17degrees. I dont know how am I gonna survive next week when I touch down in KL.

Oh did I mention? By this time, next week, I should be in KLIA already. ;) Can't wait to see all of you, I swear half of my luggage is occupied by gifts and presents for family and friends. I'm broke, been spending too much on souvenirs. Why, oh why? Why do I have such lovely friends that I see everything and reminding me of them. How adorable this bunch of friends are. I miss them so much. Despite the fact that I've been home for like twice over the past 8 months, I'm so sick of UK, I'm so over UK. I just can't wait to be back home, but then again, I know I'll miss Reading. No, not London but Reading. I'll miss its serenity, peaceful quiet little town. I will never complain of getting bored with Broad Street anymore.

Three cheers to returning home soon. I'll keep you all posted on some details. (:

It's A Good Excuse

2011-06-27T01:05:00.000+08:00

Bath & Stonehenge

2011-06-22T01:42:00.002+08:00

Manchester & Lake District

2011-06-07T09:24:00.000+08:00

Next Target: Tamron 10-24mm f/3.5-4.5

2011-06-04T07:22:00.004+08:00

I will not tour Europe until I get myself this piece of amazing thing.
Thy kingdom come, thy will be done. I shall conquer.

The Travelling Song

2011-06-01T21:55:00.003+08:00

I guess it's safe to officially say this - my brother stood me up to tour Europe. Worse still, he might not even be attending my graduation. Awww, come on, I want him in my family photo for the graduation package I'm getting.

The fact that Europe will still be there and this could be the force driving me to come back to the UK to do the bar! So not worthy coming to study in UK yet haven't been out of UK around Europe, damn sad. But maybe, I could fly back together with my parents since they're flying on the same airlines (:

Oh btw, they're coming for my graduation, yay! Just that, my brother. Need more convincing. Zzz. And possibly, just in time for this ;)

Oh Simple Thing, Where Have You Gone?

2011-06-01T03:38:00.002+08:00

The few things you could find in my room lately.

Stupid wisdom tooth growth has been bothering me for weeks. From pre-exams to post-exams and recently it had gotten worse. Ulcer expands each day as the wisdom tooth keeps growing, bonjela tried its best, but its still so painful. Affecting the nerves, causing me headaches and occasional fever.

Not fun.

So everyone's out on road trips, excursions, round the Europe. I'm stucked at home in Reading coz I feel guilty for using the mom's money to go traveling. So I should just sit at home. While I'm sitting home planning for my upcoming Europe trip with my brother, I turned down offers from friends going round traveling. Guess what, my bro last night told me he might not be coming. I WANNA DAI.

I'm into scarves and shawls lately. If you happened to see or bump into these and somehow reminded you of me, it's a sign that you should buy it for me! HAHA. Yes, I'm serious.

Now Panic & Freak Out

2011-05-31T06:26:00.002+08:00

Processed my first roll of film for my newly bought Fisheye Lomography toy camera. Couldn't afford a fisheye lens for my digital SLR, hence a lomo toy camera! Not too bad, pretty amusing. The feeling's good, very much indescribable!

with my flatmate, Anne. (:

It's A Supernatural Delight!

2011-05-25T02:24:00.004+08:00

Had a good day out with the classmates! Actually it's been a great week hanging out having fun with them after exams. Of post-exam dinners and eat out, trip to London, sightseeing, viewing properties and the Inns of Court applications, etc. Believe it or not, it's been just days after the end of our Bachelors but it felt like weeks. Thanks to the many spontaneous and random hangouts, outings, and meals. It's been a great time after so long! (:

More to come I hope, I believe so.

La Bamba!

2011-05-22T07:25:00.004+08:00

Such a tiring day, walked the entire Reading from Chinese groceries to the normal English (basic!) groceries. Had our post-exam's steamboat party this evening and it was the bomb! Never did I expect to get a taste of this all the way here in UK. Little did I know you could use rice-cookers for steamboats. Oh gosh!

Funniest thing was that, we've been planning this for almost a week and we've been counting down for this day to come real soon. Alot of walking and preparations to do, not as much as back home, coz it's a lil tight-budget in here so we could only get the basic stuff without spending extra ka-chings on this meal. Turned out pretty reasonable, bloated, for less than 5quid, I couldn't ask for more.

Spent the evening chit-chatting and singing, laughing! From oldies to Spanish songs, from Super Junior to Rod Stewart, Bryan Adams, Sue Thompson, Scissors Sisters and Juanes. What a great end to LL.B finals. (: Oh! See the pictures for yourself!

Post-Exams Thoughts

2011-05-21T05:41:00.005+08:00

Can you believe it, it's the end of my Bachelors Degree, it's the end of three years in Law School? My heart was beating fast as I was answering the final question of the paper, with the remaining one hour left to go, I knew the finishing line is just there and the end is near, I don't need to rush over coz I know it's just there. I could see it. Time flies in fact, I kept writing and writing, not a single bit of wanting to give up and walk out of the exam hall. I really want to mark a great ending to my final paper of my Bachelors Degree.

There you go, waiting in line to graduate, in less than 2 months time. As I walked out of Palmer Building, I knew it was the end of Law School. It's finally here, the day we all have been waiting for, the day we longed for ever since day 1 we entered Law School 3years back. Knowing we had a tough 3 years which makes this last paper a remarkable one. I just don't know how to describe it. At the same time, I felt that it was such a great big huge relief, the burden on my shoulders can be put down, I dont feel the weight of the earth on my shoulders. Have a lil faith in yourself, I believe I'll be able to pass this exams with no resits to do as I really put in effort this year. The amount of effort I put in gets greater each year, hoping that the fruit I reap at the end of the day would be fat and juicy. Not confident for a 2nd Upper degree, but I have done my best and now everything is in the hands of God.

One thing I'm feeling blessed and thankful about is that, before each paper, someone will always gather us together and say a prayer. That really gave me the courage and the strength to move on, the inner strength to push myself towards my limits and out of my comfort zone. I went all out for this exams, slacking a lil bit towards the end of the exams on the final paper but I honestly believed that I have done my best and I have no regrets for it. I still remember there was this one day that I was about to give up on the upcoming papers coz I felt really restless that the cases just don't stay in my head. Over and over again I've read the same principles and laws, they just slip off my mind completely and the next time I read it again, I felt like a complete stranger to things I have previously read before but not recalling anything. That kind of restless just makes you want to give up each time. I was browsing thru some blogs hoping to ease my mind a bit and I stumbled upon this quote. And it goes ..........

"When you're about to give up, just remember the reason why you've held on to it for so long."

It was meant to be in the context of a boy-girl relationship thingy throughout that blogpost but none of those ideas struck me. I just knew that the moment I saw that I should not just give up on my efforts I've been through in Law School. I know my dad really wanted me to get into law school, and the reason why I've held on to it for so long has always been my dad, my parents. Each new semester begins, I will tend to ask myself why am I still in Law School, and each time when I start questioning myself on that, eventually I will realise it's too late for me to even think about asking that question. I stopped asking that question this year, coz knowing its the final strive, the final semester that indicated Law School is ending real soon, as long as I give in a lil extra effort and push myself towards limits. I tried getting rid all those distractions before my revision period, and I managed to.

I'm glad that it's all over.

Many have been giving me countless encouragements and inspirations to keep the momentum in me, kept me going and I can't thank them all. You know who you are! The end of Law School does not mean the end of everything, and I believe there are more to come. If God gives you a task, he'll make sure you'll be able to get thru it and he wouldn't give you a task which you can't handle. So having said this, the end of Law School meaning something tougher coming along on its way.

I am ready for it, always been trying a little harder to be a little better everyday. I'm feeling very thankful for today, really. I just can't wait to see my parents and my brother on my Graduation day! Wished Wendy could be around too, she promised me. (:

Fearless!

2011-05-18T22:42:00.001+08:00

SuetMei Thoo

one more paper and I'm done with Bachelors Degree, done with Law School.

the end is near, hang in there suets, focus!

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Only Time Can Tell

2011-05-14T23:17:00.003+08:00

All great experiences that engage us have an element of uncertainty at their core.
To find greatness, embrace uncertainty - Aaron Dignan

Congratulations, Mr & Mrs Nadim Van der Ros!

2011-05-10T07:33:00.000+08:00

誰愛的太自由　誰過頭太遠了　
誰要走我的心　誰忘了那就是承諾
誰自顧自地走　誰忘了看著我　
誰讓愛變沉重　誰忘了要給你溫柔

我還有想要愛你的衝動

Happy Mother's Day

2011-05-08T04:51:00.000+08:00

I'm five years old, it's getting cold I've got my big coat on
I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides, look now, the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep, on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean
I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
And we drive and drive until we've found a town far enough away
And we talk and window-shop until I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school
I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day with you today

I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my ~~little~~ brother, inside and out he's better than I am
I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run, and I had the best days with you

There is a video I found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me
It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs
Dad is smart, and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

Now I know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes, staying back and watching me shine
And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm taking this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

2011-05-07T11:33:00.001+08:00

you may be disappointed if you fail,

but you are doomed if you don't try.

You're Gonna Kiss Me Or Not?

2011-05-05T04:32:00.002+08:00

I'd be so selfish for not sharing this new piece from Julia Sheer!
And I have to, coz this is just too good. ;)

Mission Impossible

2011-05-04T06:19:00.002+08:00

My final year is coming to an end, well hopefully, that is if I manage to graduate in July, instead of resiting a paper and defer my graduation, that'd be so demoralizing.

So this is it, my first paper will commence in another few more hours, well I'm still struggling tho to be frank. This year, as opposed to the previous years, I have 5 core papers to sit for, unlike before I had also a few but not all of them are core papers. Well this year, for God knows what reason I've chosen most heavy papers, the least interested ones - for future prospects I believed.

You know what's the definition of stressing out - it's when you finished reading the whole damn thick notes you've got/prepared and the moment you closed the book, putting it aside, only to realise whatever you studied had been forgotten. THOSE CASES NEVER JUST STAY. FML.

God bless me. I still wanna graduate this July. ):

Someone Just Got Killed

2011-05-03T07:53:00.007+08:00

Whoever he is, but the fact is that - someone just got killed, murdered.
Confusion between serving justice and revenge? Hmmmmmmm.

Just my two cents.

Speaking of lawful killing or unlawful killing? Murder or killing with intention in itself is unlawful. An eye for an eye, retribution - these are not an exception to that, nor an excuse for another life to be taken away.

Well I'm not too sure if he retaliated during the final operation, but the fact that President said in his speech, that all these years they have placed killing him if he were to be located as their utmost priority - intention to murder is well proven.

Despite thousands of lives had been taken away by him, despite he was the one who started all these tragedies, but what good does it do to all, being said that justice is now served. Oh wait, justice is served by taking away someone else's life?

I admit that I am not feeling too good about this.

She's Got Blue Eyes Deep Like The Sea

2011-05-02T08:00:00.002+08:00

Take some time off your books, or any work and have a look at this.

Still a rookie in facial & body care, so this is definitely one awesome tutorial I'd like to share with all of you readers! Do take her advice on the highlighting part to give yourself a natural glow, flaunt it girls. (;

Falling

2011-05-01T07:11:00.000+08:00

And the conversation was right, underneath the shade of moonlight
you were standing there, with sun-touched hair and a dress the color white.
Like an aeroplane I took flight, fell in love with you that first night
cause you danced with me and I could see that there was more to life.

I'm falling, I'm falling in love with you

Just before the strike of midnight, you said this could be the good life
then you said goodbye, hope that I get to see you soon.
Then I walked for several miles, couldn't rid me of my smile
cause you found me and I found you, in this lovely month of June.

I'm falling, I'm falling in love with you

Will you catch me because lately you're a dream come true
Say you love me, you are lovely, do you feel it too?

The Royal Wedding

2011-04-29T23:15:00.004+08:00

So I slept thru the Royal Wedding proceedings, didn't bother to wake up to watch. Was asked to head down to London to celebrate together but I didn't wanna be part of those who murdered the grass in Hyde Park today. Oh gosh, RIP grasses in Hyde Park. Shermaine and Waiteng had a group chat set up for the Royal Wedding on Whatsapp, my phone kept vibrating for hours throughout the proceedings while I was still snoozing happily. And this morning Shermaine tried waking me up: "Morning suet! It's wedding day!" .......... For a moment, I thought I'm getting married today.

Congratulations, William and Kate.

p/s: dear William, she better be true to you and treat you right ):

The reason why I didn't bother to watch it live coz I was deeply saddened by the fact that Lady Diana wasn't able to be around to celebrate this day of her son's wedding, that's the only regret that I have. I watched the highlights, Kate's dress was simple and nice. I think it was not the dress which made her look stunning, but the glow on her. The royal glow? Hmmm. Well, William is balding, lacking the royal glow now. HAHAHA. FML. Random note: Reading's pride, Kate was born from our very own Royal Berkshire Hospital in Reading. BWAHAHAHAHA.

I was reading up on Family Law yesterday, still am. Been reading up on creation of Marriage in conjunction with the Royal Wedding today, found a few case laws which I'd like to share:

Back to the 1866 definition of Marriage: the voluntary union of life,

between one man and one woman, to the exclusion of all others. ♥

- Hyde v Hyde

Marriage is only a contract,

but a status bringing rights and obligations to the parties ♥

- Re P

The essence of the contract being an agreement

between a man and a woman to live together,

and to love one another as husband and wife,

to the exclusion of all others ♥

- Sheffield CC v E&S

Let This Be Untitled

2011-04-29T10:58:00.001+08:00

Life isn't always sunshine and butterflies. But you'll be amazed at how many dreams spring to life the minute you finally let ghosts from the past die. A good life is when you assume nothing, do more, smile often, dream big, laugh a lot and realize how blessed you are for what you have.

Well, my life is a beautiful painting and,
you're just one of the many colors that make it beautiful.

I'd Go Back to December

2011-04-27T02:49:00.002+08:00

Baby, it's NO LONGER cold outside. Sring is here.

So I booked my flight today, I left the next day - Malaysia bound. Spontaneous much. Packed in a rush, left home in a rush. Couldn't believe that I was going to be on the next plane home. Little did I expect myself to go home for Christmas, some last-minute decision I made and glad that I did. With the flying mates, together with a our lil' friend we made in the plane. Jia Huey from Perak, hello there!

I was greeted with the warm weather the moment I stepped out of the plane when we touched down KL. Everyone must have heard me screaming for the KL air I was breathing. I was happy indeed, very happy to be home.

And, no one knew.

No one knew I came back, well just a few.

I spent my first few days home working for Taylor's Open Day, day in day out the University. Been spending time with the juniors in Law School. Met old and new friends. Met snobbish parents, met humble parents. Met weird kids. And through out the few days, I had to be very careful with whatever I post on twitter and on Facebook. The time difference is what that makes things special. I am on Whatsapp with Vivian at odd hours, coz she sleeps at odd hours that's why. So in order to 'pretend' that I was still in England at that time, I had to wake up at odd hours too, speaking to her on Whatsapp when I was already in KL at that point of time. Waking up cranky at 5am pretending it was like 10/11 pm in the UK, then head to work.

Reason being, my return could be a birthday surprise for her. (:

The plan went well. Haithal and I planned to fetch her out for a countdown, and to her surprise, my car appeared in front of her house as I went to fetch her. She didn't believe I was back even sitting inside the car that I drove. Screamed and screamed and screamed.

Just love the way I lied (:

Well throughout the one month, I was accompanied by her and my cousin. We technically spent December, Christmas, New Year and tough times together, most of the time. (: Fortunately, my stay was accompanied with lots of local delights too. HERE COMES THE FOOD!

Haha, sorry I just had to.

I was just doing my revisions and I miswritten conflicts as 'cornflakes'. I think I'm hungry now, well it's dinner time, but the sky is still goddamn bright. Imma go cook soon! Hereby ending this post with pictures of a bunch of my loveliest friends. I heart them! (:

If I had the choice, I'd choose to go back to December, just as Taylor Swift said, and relive it.

Back to December when Wendy was still alive and I would made it up to Penang to see her.

Back to December before everything between "us" came to an end, everything of a total of 6years.

Back to December when everyone would just stay by my side, giving me their undying love and support.

I'd go back to December.

He's Alive!

2011-04-25T00:38:00.006+08:00

I made it to church today, so happy!

It was the Easter service today, on Easter Sunday. I thought that I should go to church on Easter, and trying my luck seeing if there's any real Easter eggs being given out. Nope, no real eggs, only chocolate eggs, those Cadbury ones. Actually knowing that it's Easter, a very significant day - felt that I really needed to go to church, plus Justin was just telling me to spare some time for God even if it's just for a day. Well, true enough, inner strength told myself to make time for God a day (hopefully more!) and surprisingly I managed to wake up for church! Haha.

Followed the classmates to Reading Family Church at Reading Girls' School. No regrets.

Needless for me to explain on the details, some sort very much of a personal thing. Found inner peace today, and im feeling it. Too many things have been going on lately. Felt so good after the service tho it didn't really show on my face. But after so long, it feels good to attend church again.

Think I will wanna attend church again next week. (:

Liverpool & Anfield: The Home of LFC

2011-04-24T02:58:00.000+08:00

As most of you would have known, from my Facebook or Twitter, I went on a road-trip spontaneously decided just two days before the trip. I must say, the best things happen when you least expect it to. I had a wonderful getaway from Reading with a bunch of friends whom I barely even know for more than 2months or so. But I appreciated the fact that my presence was appreciated by them too. We head up north to Liverpool, Manchester and Lake District. Well too many to story on but I'll just split this into two posts, one covering Liverpool and the other covering Manchester and Lake District alright? (:

First stop, Liverpool.

I fell in love with this city! Never did I expect, little did I know Liverpool had so much to offer. And for just twentyfour hours in Liverpool, I think we pretty much covered most of the attractions. I took a train up to Liverpool and met the two London-ers there, while waiting for the other 5 from Reading driving their way up with their own sweet time, lols. So meanwhile the three of us, Qiu Yan, Wei Ee and I went round town centre and Albert Dock.

St. Georges Hall, right in front of Liverpool Lime Street station. We were so lost that we had no where to go, tugged on to our luggages and walked round Liverpool. On the way searching for the Tourist Information Centre, we walk passed various attractions. Random can be good, no where to head to, no time restrictions and just walked and walked and walked. Stopped and stared, snapped a few pictures, and continued walking, I like being random.

Speaking of which, I think I'm known for being random and spontaneous. I can book a flight today and hop on the plain tomorrow, long haul flights mind you. I can book my train ticket a day or two before a one week road trip. The upcoming trips and all I'm expecting to do this too, coz I'm never settled with plans, seems rather unorganized but then, I can't say and promise for sure that I'll be there.

Head down to Albert Dock, the infamous docks in Liverpool. I have no idea what's there, just slightly wiki-ed on Liverpool and found out Albert Dock was one of the major attractions. In fact we were walking towards Albert Dock for the tourist informations, as well as The Beatles Museum. Utter disappointment, the last admission for The Beatles Museum was 5pm and we were only two minutes late. Swear I will visit that place again, afterall Liverpool was the origin of The Beatles, now you know. ;)

Oh well, they called it the Merseyside too, and I heard there were ferry rides along the dock. Does it sound familiar to you? From Wikipedia, "Mersey" refers to the River Mersey in northwest England, a river that flows into the Irish Sea at Liverpool. Remember this song? Ferry Cross The Mersey (1965) by Gerry & The Pacemakers ...... So ferry, cross the mersey, coz this land's the place I love, and here I'll stay, here I'll stay.

Met up with everyone else in Albert Dock, in front of the Liverpool Eye and moved on to have our dinner, everyone was starving then. Walked towards the direction of the shopping mall in Liverpool, called the Liverpool One. Starting to feel lazy, I'll let the pictures to do the talking. Otherwise, there's always Facebook to browse through the whole album. Oh wait, I think I have not uploaded pictures on Liverpool, yet. Stay tuned.

I love them girls.

Liverpool sure is a dead town by night, it's worse than Reading to be frank. We went strolling along the streets looking for a place to sit down and have a drink, and watch soccer at the same time but time passed us by unknowingly, we made our way towards the Liverpool Cathedral, as well as Liverpool Chinatown. The street was just as dead. Shops were closed, pretty early.

Found a restaurant that sells bubble tea, pretty cheap but it was awful. I shall skip that! We went back to our rented apartment, it was this cozy cute lil apartment filled with decorations in red. I must love this owner to death! He or she must be a sweetheart to have his/her house decorated like this. SO SO CUTE :D Cheers to our first night of road trip! I slept on the couch that night, my comfy lil zone, I studied Family Law on that couch even. That night was awful, I couldnt sleep until daybreak. And when I finally managed to get some good rest, I was asked to wake up and bathe, coz we're heading out really soon, to the place I anticipated most.

Took my own sweet time, knowing it was not my day. It was just not my day, cranky days and a sleepy head. But hey, HELLO ANFIELD :D

If you think you know me, you should also know that I'm a die-hard fan of Liverpool FC. Needless to say, the reason for my spontaneity is due to Anfield, The Home of LFC. This is like a dream came true, visiting The Kop in Anfield, never did I expect this to happen. I could feel my blood boiling when I stepped out of the car, laying my foot on the ground of Anfield. That feeling was epic, and indescribable! :D

YNWA.

We went on a Stadium Tour and visited the museum, booked in advance for fear that the schedules might be packed. Indeed, there were quite a number of people on the tour alongside with us. Definitely one of my favourite season of all, ever since the change in their manager too! (:

Who cares about Torres? To quote Justin, "he who betrays will always walk alone". Judging from his performance in Chelsea thus far, I must say, all the best Torres. The current number9 is doing so much better. And my man, Carroll. That's my number9. (:

You'll Never Walk Alone YNWA. (:

Food For The Ears

2011-04-24T00:41:00.004+08:00

Take my words for it:
Place a piano next to Jay Chou, he'll create wonders. (:

Goosebumps.
This was a live performance.

Scenes from his first self-directed film - Secret

Friends, Lovers, Or Nothing

2011-04-22T22:50:00.004+08:00

... There can only be one, there'll never be an in-between so give it up. - John Mayer

Coming to the stage of being comfortable with each other, then it all depends on what you do with that comfort. Arguing is one thing, but being unhappy and unsatisfied with the relationship is another thing. And the worst of it all, being strangers again.

It takes two to tango, and things happen when someone stops trying.

Although it is worth the fight, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting.

I'll Put A Flower In Your Hair

2011-04-22T12:26:00.004+08:00

Suerte - by Jason Mraz & Ximena Sariñana
Don't you love it better in Spanish?

This is something to be proud of - I could sing this in Spanish, despite not knowing what exactly does it mean. But I guess it's more or less the same, it still conveys a love message in a way or another. I don't know, it stays in my mind better than the English version with Colbie Caillat. It's been ages since I last heard this version, oh gosh. Just read a tweet from a friend, and this is gonna be a 21st century problem! Have you ever wondered how would you cite or do an in-text citation for a YouTube video in your thesis? Point to ponder ;)

Eight Days A Week

2011-04-22T08:11:00.005+08:00

hold me, love me, hold me, love me ...
aint got nothing but love babe!
eight days a week, i love you,
eight days a week, is not enough to show i care!

Sounds familiar? Or no? That was "Eight Days A Week" by The Beatles. I'm feeling this way at this very moment, everyday staying in to study and do revisions for my upcoming finals. It was good to have a random outing to London for no good reason, random can be good. (:

Went to Tower Bridge to visit Wendy by St. Kats. Haven't seen her for long since late March. Missing her like crap. And this was the first time I went to see her all by myself. There was no one with me this time around. The feeling was rather different. Each time I drop by I will always get her Caramel Macchiato, her favourite. Without fail, and since it's late Spring right now, it gets pretty warm in here in the UK, I switched it to Iced Caramel Macchiato this time! Hope that helps to cool down abit while adjusting to the weather right now. Sigh.

I left them from Chinatown and met them again in Hyde Park after Tower Bridge. Was there to celebrate a new friend's birthday. Happy Birthday, Vanessa! (:

Sunbathing and picnic, me love. Just that I was too tired to enjoy the scenery and join in the fun. I was half-dead considering I didnt have a good sleep the night before and got caught up with some issues that were rather disturbing to me throughout the day, not forgetting of the other issues revolving around my world too, as well as the dreadful finals. OMG. All these are driving me crazy, turning me into a mad woman with a long and black face. FML.

They reserved this one lovely red velvet cupcake for me.

It's from the infamous Hummingbird Bakery! Thanks girls! (:

Went back to Chinatown to send Vanessa off and ate taufoofar! By far the biggest rip-off throughout my stay in UK, paid 4quid for just a bowl of taufoofar. So not worth it, not that its hella great anyway. Sigh!

p/s: on a random note, i'm starting to like my hair colour (:

Moved on to Soho, of bubbletea, Amorino gelato, and some Spanish Food. So happy to have my gelato icecream after a long day, a long long day. A very bad day for me by just visiting St Kats to begin with. ): I'm a happy girl again when there's ice cream, I get betrayed by ice cream just like that. I remember that shop while I was browsing through my brother's pictures in Spain, little did I know they have a branch in London, and Bicester Village too. I'm a happy girl again HAHA. Things had never been this great in London! Walked down to Regent St. to have a look at all the Jack Unions in conjuction with the upcoming Royal Wedding of William and Kate.

No comment. Haha.

One Month To Liberty

2011-04-21T21:23:00.001+08:00

By next month, today, I will be free from my Bachelors. :D

High High, I'm So Fly

2011-04-21T20:17:00.002+08:00

Here's something to start off the day. Pledged to wake up early today to wrap up on my Revenue (Tax) Law revisions, seems like I failed. epic PHAIL.

Hardly gotten any sleep the night before and went down to London in a very very very bad mood. Probably because I've been working on a post about Wendy's funeral, and I had to go see her in the afternoon by St.Kats. As well as some other issues that I've been caught up with lately. Revisions, exams, the Bar, people and all. Sorry that some had to suck up to my black face yesterday, but meeting up with Qiu Yan and Wei Ee instantly brighten up my day, for real. It was a 180degrees spin. (:

Thank you girls.

Dear Wendy

2011-04-20T10:51:00.000+08:00

I'm coming to visit you in just a few hours time. (:

It's All Over The News Today

2011-04-20T01:24:00.002+08:00

Give these guys a chance, a new band from Scotland. I like their music! (:

Still, A Glimpse of Hope

2011-04-19T21:04:00.005+08:00

"I can confirm we have gone into clearing and are currently considering applications.
If your application is successful you will be notified shortly." - institution in East Midlands

as opposed to

"I am afraid that we do not intend to make any further offers for September 2011." - institution in Wales

There's still hope, I guess. (:

Kpop bang!

2011-04-19T04:32:00.005+08:00

Very into kpop recently, been looking up to Bigbang's videos very often, and most of the time I could stare at the same video, playing over and over again. You know this habit of yours, when you've found a song that fits your life perfectly just at that spur moment, or even if you happen to got addicted to this one song for no particular reason, you play your 'current favourite' until it's no longer your favourite.

I first knew about kpop few years back when I was catching Jay Chou on some Golden Melody Awards, forgotten which year was it. All I knew was, Jay was gonna attend that event and obviously he was gonna perform with the piano and win some awards (that's my idol!) and yeah, while waiting for him, the organizers invited this Korean dude over for an event of the Chinese music industry. Like what the hell, little did I know I got addicted to that song,it was I Know by Se7en. Thereafter I rarely listen to Kpop since the whole "Rain"-storm came along, thought he was a lil overrated. There comes Kdrama and slowly, I began to start listening to em again, not too obsessed until Taeyang's Wedding Dress, and slowly I kinda noticed Bigbang.

There goes my whole kpop influence. Am gonna share you this one song I quite like and have been listening for months. Enjoy! Not to mention, my friend Julius looks like Se7en OMG. HAHA. Random (:

Spring Has Sprung!

2011-04-17T18:59:00.001+08:00

Weather is good, all is good - and here comes the law school picnic! With the bunch of mates, fellow legal eagles.
Of frisbee, soft drinks, chips, junk-food and a group of wonderful people, I cannot ask for more. (:

Life is good, cheers!

Chinese New Year, the English Way!

2011-04-17T03:04:00.001+08:00

Ahh, some long overdue post. I was just browsing through my drafts folder, as well as the folder of pictures to be blogged on, to my surprise, I found CNY pics still around. Thought that I had blogged about it and turned out that I haven't, so here it is. You'd be surprise why am I suddenly popping up again all of a sudden. Its good news isn't it? Then again, I realised I have this habit that, when I'm under stress, pressure due to work, I'll blog and photoshop more often. No photoshop, no pictures to blog. It's a chain reaction! (;

So here goes!

So delighted to have Mr Lai over in the UK to celebrate Chinese New Year with us! (: Picture tells a thousand words, looking at the faces above, they don't seem unfamiliar to you isn't it, that is if you've been following my blog all along. Apologies for other readers, I've not blogged for a very long time. If you've not catched up on my previous posts, above those faces are all my Law School classmates, after two, coming three years classmates (:

Knowing that we'd be celebrating CNY over in the UK, we weren't able to fly back home to celebrate this auspicious event with our family members, but nevertheless you can always celebrate it with your 'family members' abroad, and these are my family members here! (:

Spring term, we've got lots to do. Tutorials, and assignments due. It was quite difficult for us to come together to have a meal together in the midst of preparation for ^$%^@()!@#! amount of tutorial classes. But we made it a point to have a reunion dinner at least on the eve of CNY! (:

No prize for guessing who was the chef who prepared most of the dishes.

As sad as it is, Faye, Waiteng and I had death in the family recently so, according to traditions and customs, we shouldn't even be eating/preparing for reunion dinner. But, consulted many many other people and ended up - we could prepare, just that we couldn't 'lou sang' or toss the yeesang. In case you're a non-Chinese and wondering what's yeesang .........

That's a dish which the Americans call them Chinese Salad. Wiki calls it the Prosperity Toss! Well, as for what's in that dish, you may see for yourself in the pictures below. Sadly, the three of us prepared yeesang, but we couldn't 'toss' it, oh wells. The irony of it. It's sort of a tradition to toss the yeesang during CNY, you're suppose to shout out to all kinds of auspicious wishes, symbolizing abundance and prosperity. Ever wondered how we find yeesang in the UK? Haha, thank god for some simple recipes online! We managed to pull off with raddish, carrots, cucumbers and found wanton skin, nuts, pomelo, tangerine, sesame oil and plum sauce at our local chinese groceries - See Woo. Thank God for plum sauce! omg. :O

Blissful. Had yeesang despite celebrating 6000miles away in the UK, not too bad (; It was edible. Hahaha, healthier than I thought :P Oh, luckily I had some salmon left from my groceries shopping! That was indeed some enhancement to the yeesang (;

What's yeesang without salmon? You kidding me. (:

We had another round of reunion dinner on the fifteenth day - Chap Goh Meh as well! No idea where those pictures are. But it was surely a feast indeed. Realized I eat more Chinese food than I do back home, oh gosh. (:

Over the weekend we went over to Chinatown in London as well to see how CNY is being celebrated here. Very happening indeed. Obvious much, we were in London Chinatown!

Had lunch in WongKei! SiuYok SiuNgap rice had never taste so good before! :D

Meanwhile, I was missing home so badly. (:

Just Saying ...

2011-04-16T02:49:00.000+08:00

I love you, like a fat kid loves cake.
But lately, that fat kid has been on a diet.

I'll Never Break Your Heart

2011-03-27T00:27:00.002+08:00

Acapella Version, by the legendary boy band BSB

Do You Remember, Or Should I Rewind?

2011-03-05T05:24:00.004+08:00

为音乐付出做到最好，
为演唱会尽心做到完美，
为电影坚持力求突破。

直到现在，
你还记得我的第一首歌吗？
你还记得我的第一场演唱会吗？
你还记得我第一次电影演出吗？
你还记得我们第一次不能说的秘密吗？

我的荣耀与你们同享。

谢谢所有陪我走过十年的人，
不过哈哈，或许我唱第一张专辑有些人还没有出生，
无论你是参与我的全部还是中途加入，
希望我的音乐可以陪你迈向未来的每一步。

还有请记住，我没有这么容易倒，

谁叫我是周杰伦，
因为有你们我才能继续往前飞。

One night of VVIP down, One more night of Rock Zone tomorrow.

I still remember his very first song - Ke Ai Nv Ren (可爱女人). No I did not attend his first concert in KL, but the subsequent three concerts I was there, with myJAYsian, from Incomparable 2005 till 2008 World Tour till now, 2011 The Era World Tour. You must be thinking I'm nuts, yes I flew back from UK for this concert, flew back just for a week. Still having my jetlag now. I don't see a need to explain myself. This is my undying support for him.

The video of his 10years recap really touched me, listing from all the various events, the past, the list of albums and shows, the list of just everything, you know you've been almost part of his everything.

I know I was.

Looking back, it's been how many donkey years we've been supporting him be it music or films. Thinking back those crazy moments we lived, it was truly an experience not meant to be forgotten. The friends we made, lasted a decade. The experience we gained, dealing with organizers, media, and all other sponsors plus people in-charged. These are all that you can only learn outside your textbooks. I joined myJAYsian since I was 15 and you have no idea how much exposure I've gained through all these years with myJAYsian. I'm thankful for this club and the team. I'm thankful for the wonderful mates I've spent my youth with. I'm thankful for just everything Jay Chou and myJAYsian given me and to everyone else.

We should really consider starting up a myJAYsian in the UK, since all four committees are all UK graduates now. One more night tomorrow, Rock Zone, then me off to Reading next week, then SeakChiew off to London, and Devonn back to Manchester. Dionn, go back to Newcastle too, please. HAHA

Don't Dream, It's Over

2011-02-25T14:26:00.002+08:00

Hey now, hey now, don't dream, it's over. It's not over, I hope.
In a mess now, what lies ahead, we don't know, and we won't know.

Random. 6.26am in Reading, I'm still wide awake. I hate the workload, not that I cannot handle stress. Just that, having to do and amend shits over and over again makes me feel irritated and annoyed whole night long. I feel even worse for those who stayed up late together with me, helping me and giving me two cents worth. I appreciate that alot, and I don't blame you if you actually dozed off halfway through. I was suppose to sleep before it hit midnight earlier just now. I sensed that I had slight fever, falling sick real soon. But I had to stay up, no choice.

I'm going crazy. Hello, I am 道明寺.

Sometimes, I don't know if its a good thing or a bad thing. Oh yes, I'm a workaholic, but sometimes it gets so irritating that I wanna break down and cry. My shoulders sore like mad, my head is aching and thats pissing me off. Worse thing is, I don't know where are all my painkillers. I don't even know what to say now. I sent my lecturer and email just a while ago, and I hope I was making sense and not giving him shits, when I was just merely wanting to replace a tutorial.

Tell Me Quando, Quando Quando

2011-02-24T09:54:00.003+08:00

Oh my love, please tell me when.

I just feel like singing out loud but just because I am not driving a car right now, I couldn't. I feel so limited with myself in the UK. Sigh, how to live life this way? I am left to a few days to pack, no, not telling you where am I going. But shit loads of work to do, and I have no time for myself and to sit down quietly and pack!

I just finished reorganizing my notes and handouts tho. Not the first day knowing law students and lawyers in general have papers all over their work station. Just that, each time I finish keeping them aside, nicely arranged, there comes in another pile of papers. WHY. Well you cannot ask me to do digital. I mean come on, lawyers, all you could think of is on paper, black and white, on paper. Sigh. Trees oh trees, I don't wanna be you in my next life, please don't punish me this way. Profession demands. ):

I can't wait to start a food blog. I just finished skyping with my mom. It's been a week or two, and I remember the last time I skyped with my parents was on V-day omg, look how time flies. Stupid workload. I just spoke to my brother, we're going on a backpacking trip together OMG I CANT WAIT. But seriously I suck in planning, especially when it comes to the cheapest means of transportation and accommodation. OMG. Tho my research was pretty thorough but I've not touched a single thing on flight/train, neither accommodation. I guess we'll be sleeping in train stations, not too bad an idea huh ;)

On a side note, this is my favourite song by Michael Buble. (:

Like A Rose

2011-02-21T09:27:00.002+08:00

So many things can happen in just two weeks time. And it's spring time, for me. (:

1.29 am, on a Sunday night, rushing my work for tomorrow's early tutorials. Typical Sunday night routine, just like my previous post. Well I have classes on alternate Mondays. Monday MORNINGS. Holy crap. But I'm counting on a new beginning. I wake up to having things to look forward to and life has been good to me.

I think I should start blogging again. Not with pictures but just text. Not to see who cares to read but I would prefer a constant update rather than leaving it hanging and bombard you with all sorts of pictures at once.

In case you miss me.

I occasionally drop by London to 'visit' Wendy, we spread her ashes along River Thames near Tower Bridge. It's been a week and I will just swing by to buy her coffee unintentionally and place it there before I go ahead with the rest of the agenda of the day. Guess it will be so for the next few weeks. I just wished that I had more time to spend with her, not after that she has left. But I guess this is the only thing I could do for now.

As for the title of this post, in light of the recent festive celebrated by many - Valentines Day, also because that I overheard this song in a friend's blog just an hour ago. I rarely read others blogs, although I blog. I am never a faithful reader of any blogs. I fail in that, seriously. But I do expect people to read my blog, not because they are forced into this, but more of like wanting to know what has been going on in my life and all. I appreciate that, and I can never thank you enough, for the continuous support and the undying love for me. Thanks for tolerating me abandoning this blog ever since I came to UK. Too much to do, too little time.