Here We Go Again

The day I fear most has arrived. Thank god for the girls being around for me the whole time. Spent the night at Serra's watching soap drama, then all three of us including Elaine were seen sitting at one corner each with our phones, texting. Not good. Pledged to put down the phone after a couple of songs and had a sharing session. Interesting night. And they refused to accompany me for desserts, was craving for sweet stuff. Give me something sweet and I'll be happy, ice cream is +1. Haven't been blogging properly lately, been speaking Manglish for 3whole months. Not good, need to brush up on my English again. Time for some reading on English judgments again, how I miss those flowery English.

Haven't been really productive lately, starting NOT to understand lectures and the course gets tougher each time. I am currently on a Deepavali break for a week, one thing I love most about Malaysia is the ample amount of public holidays we have. Good things always come to an end (fast) as usual and its the mid-week already. I've not completed the two essays as requested and to catch up on some reading list.



And the Bar application opens next month, I'm gonna put in my application once again. At the same time, a part of me doesn't wanna leave. It's not the place that holds me back but the people around. I hate goodbyes. Another part of me isn't ready for all these work stress again year after year. I've always have this idea of putting in my application upfront and I shall consider about it only if I am being offered a place. Not too good an idea. Sigh.

" ... at least London wanted you" - my lecturer comforted me.

Kinda lost myself lately, been going against my principles. I have always hated the fact that I have to change myself just to please others. I had nothing to hide and it's not obligatory for me to please everyone on earth. Privatised my twitter account, I never had problems being public with myself before this. Changed various privacy settings on other social networking accounts, even to the extent of shutting this blog. I track my visitors, I know who reads my blog. But sometimes, for some reason you just have to lay down your ego and pride, for better obvious reasons.

So much to say, so limited, so restricted. All these will come to an end right?