I Have Died Everyday Waiting For You

I asked, do you realise that I'm always waiting for you to return home each time?
He asked, which part of Oil and Gas Engineer did you not understand?

I kept quiet. I weeped silently.

I have forgotten how it feels like to hold conversations with you like what we once had, arguments and fights wrecked us and drifted us so much further apart in the past two months. So many things we promised to do together, and so many places we promised to go together, I'll be waiting for days like these to come by knocking on my door again.

Entering 7th month, everyday is a gift. I'll be around, nevertheless. I'll be patient, I'll be there for you. Blind faith and patience, will you walk me down the road? Please give me the strength and courage to continue walking on, braving through wind and storms. They say good things come to those who wait, but the pain of patience surely kills.

I have loved you for a thousand years, I love you for a thousand more. Darling, don't be afraid.

Barrister or Barista?

I love my classmates. :3

So Am In This Alone?

Reminds me of the days when I step into H&M Reading and they'd play songs by Olly Murs! (:

1Corinthians13:13 Faith, Hope and Love

I mean every word in it. With you by my side I will fight and defend.

You're not alone, together we stand. I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand.
When it gets cold and it feels like the end, there's no place to go you know I won't give in.

Those Years

This blog post will be written in the Chinese language.

人生就是有那麼多的遺憾，往往只能讓我們回憶過去。我們會懷念當初的愚昧，當初天真純真的想法，當年的執著。那些年錯過的愛情，是因為遺憾所以美好，還是因為美好而感到遺憾?

我的初戀，我當年的執著，你現在過得還好嗎？(:

If Perfect's What You're Searching For, Then Just Stay The Same!

Well you see, I was told that I was at the risk of being born as a child with special needs, and my parents took the risk to bring me to this beautiful place without the fear for me being a down-syndrome kid at birth. I was also been told that my mom had been thru all sorts of scanning thru-out hospitals and medical centres across KL as well as Singapore. Wow, I must say I had my first flight experience even before I was born. My mother was conceived with me at the age of early-40s, and that involved high risk of having a baby-me being born with some form of disabilities, be it mentally or physically. And I've storied this to a couple of my friends about the chances of me being a down-syndrome kid back then, they would just laugh at me and say: "Look at yourself in the mirror, you look like one sick, retard kid. You probably suffer down-syndrome but you didn't know."

...... I don't know if they really meant it but secretly I'd love to think that they were just joking. I don't know why I still call them friends, haha. But true friends are the ones who will tell you there's dirt on your face isn't it? I accept the fact that my physical attributes are not be as outstanding as others but I am really thankful that I suffer no disabilities in my early childhood stage, as well as going thru the phase of primary and secondary education. I can safely say that I am quite a normal kid, I think.



After all, no one was born perfect, and so as the saying perfectly imperfect. Mindy Gledhill sang: "It's not about the scars, it's all about your heart." (:

And as I got the chance to finally getting involved and to experience what Community Service is all about - especially when I participated in school activities, ie: the Interact and Rotary programmes - I have always wanted to play a part for the society, in particular to serve for the younger generations who are suffering from the down-syndrome disease. I tried googling about it and found about Kiwanis Down-Syndrome Foundation of Malaysia, signed up while I was in the UK, hoping to play a greater part in this when I am finally capable of being physically there to serve them when I return home to Malaysia. Nothing much, just sharing some very tiny bit detail of my life, which most of you may not have known. But now you do.

Will do further research on this but work is keeping me really busy, so as to other issues with regard to my personal life as well. Nevertheless, if there's a will there's a way. You'd be thinking that I might be BShitting you coz I shouldn't even have brought up the fact that I'm busy and stuff. Oh well, like I've said, I was just sharing the story of my life as an almost-a-downsyndrome-kid-story. Not every other kid is just as fortunate as me to be able to live perfectly for the past 21years so this is to raise some awareness among the public, or at least my readers to play a part and to serve the society. There are other needy around you too.

Signing off with our Interact motto. Viva la Interact, Service Above Self!

Because I Listen To Country Music

I'm in my room, it's a typical Tuesday night. I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like. She'll never know your story like I do.

Have You Ever?

Have you ever tried drafting a blogpost, or even just expressing your feelings by putting it down in words; after having spent a very long time drafting it, nicely tailored and fashioned. Turn around, you then save it as a draft and not posting it, or even, delete it?

It happens to me all the time, you will find alot alot alot of my saved drafts as well.
All my deepest darkest secrets everywhere, sigh.